Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Under the weather

Hello!

Well mesa am at home today, due to feeling sick :( I stayed in bed until about 11 something but I am well enough to walk around and although I feel dizzy and my legs have no energy I can still do stuff. And today is Benjamin's birthday so I want to be as well as I can be for him!

So I went through this dessert book and picked a different dessert to try out. I am doing it all at a slooowww pace so I don't stress myself or whatever and so yeah they are cooking now. They are called Chocolate Profiteroles and its a French dessert. I hope it turns out!

Its such a pretty day and while I was lying in bed I could hear all the birds singing and I was happy even though I didn't feel well. I selected two books to read (my learning) and although the reading is slow going due to my headache I have been reading what I can! The two books I selected were.
'The Secret to True Happiness' by Joyce Meyer and 'Harry Potter and the Bible' by Richard Abanes. I am reading that because I do not believe the Harry Potter series are healthy to read at all! J.K Rowling has seriously done research into the witchcraft and sorcery for her books so you might wanna think twice about what it is you're reading. But yeah I'm still going through the book so if asked why exactly I think the way I do I can have answers :) it's all about being prepared!

And the Joyce Meyer book is to help with everyday living, to be happy in every occasion and she says how. Of course we know its to begin with God but I think it helps to re-read that as its so easy to rush your morning and forget to do your bible reading and then the day goes bad and you think why? Well did you pray it would be a good day? Did you place the day in God's hands? did you take time to consider exactly what it was God wanted you to do that day? I know sometimes I don't and I really really want to make sure I do. So yah... :) Getting your attitude set right with God to begin with and learning all you can from him :)

But I have to go funny enough this takes energy and my supply is about out!

Love Me xoxox

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Living :)

Hello,

Becoming more confident, I've been thinking about that lately and been comparing myself by looking back at how I was this time last year within myself.
I am more confident now, and I feel like I could achieve what I want to achieve. Stronger within myself, all thanks to God and a good friend and his 'tutoring' lol (thank you!) :) Its kinda amazing...

I was just thinking about it on the way to work today and when I thought about a goal I thought 'Yah I could do that!' straight away instead of thinking 'Well that would be scary I'd need a lot of God's help'
I still know I'll need tons of God's help but he has given me confidence to do things now! And its awesome!! :)

Just thought I'd share that :)

Love Me

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Random comments

Hello once again :)

I haven't written since Saturday and that seems awhile...well of course! Its almost a week!
What have I been up to?

Well...work...on Wednesday I got officially signed up for A Diploma of Management, so according to paperwork I began the Diploma on the 24/8/11 but I won't actually be able to start it until I get all the modules which probably won't be for a few weeks.
Also I enjoyed another singing lesson Wednesday night, Helen is the best singing teacher EVER!! And I love going through songs with her and learning from her! I wish I could fill my head with heaps of stuff to do with singing but I need room to think of other things ;)

Tonight we're going to the Empire Theatres to see 'Joseph and Amazing Technicolour Dream Coat' should be good :) it was late arranging and it will be a rush to get home and shower up and get all 'fancy' for the theatres but I can do it!

What have I been thinking lately?

Well several things this week, I've discovered how you really really have to have 'mind of matter' and expect great things as our God is a great God!
So every day say to yourself 'I expect something great to happen' and really expect it! This was taken from Joyce Meyer.
And as to the mind of matter, trying as hard as ever to be happy during hard and stressful times. God has you in whatever you're in for a reason, there are lessons to be learnt. He could have you dealing with so much just so see what your first reaction it. Is it 'freak out!' or is it 'God got alot on my plate (as you know) and can you help me? Because with You its nothing that I can't handle'
I have to remember that 'worrying' is a sin! It is God tells us not to. And we really are doubting God when we begin to worry and how could we doubt? This really is an issue when we take a hold of ourselves and say 'Day (present) God and I are bigger than you' a day is a matter of time and we have limited time of this earth live each day as if it was your last hard to come to terms with but honestly its true!

Also I have discovered what I really dislike was really gets under my skin and hurts the most...(lol)...but it does.
I really don't like it when people think they know me, they assume what I am thinking and then guess my next course of action and annouce it and 95% of the time it really was the opposite of what I was going to do. I don't like it when people don't really believe me. I say something and they nod to it and the conversation is ended but later on it comes out in a sentence they may say and they didn't believe me the first time. Sad...
But I have to watch myself and not get all 'melancholy' about it, a lot of the time I don't give them any clue as to what I am thinking anyway; but everytime it happens I always feel like I guess...you could term it as 'running away from the situation' relocating! I wish I could leave and pop up in a place where no one knows me so they can't think they 'know' what I am thinking. But of course that is silly and I bring myself back to earth and take hold of myself. I am bigger and stronger than that!

I'll be more than happy when the right person reads me through and through but I do not like people guessing and believing their own 'guess' to be correct and not believing me when I say it is incorrect.

But! I am on top of the situation so all is well :)

I was dying to get into my garden this Saturday but I can't as we'll be out most of Saturday so mesa won't get a chance...sniff...sniff...it'll have to be Sunday after church.

But right now I gotta go! Sorry if there are any mistakes!

Love Me

Saturday, August 20, 2011

About my day :)

Hello one and all!

I hope you've all been having a good day whoever reads this and wherever you are!

Today I went shopping with my two sis's, hadn't done it in ages and so it was kinda nice to walk around and shop. We actually went 'dress hunting' but I've discovered its the hardest thing in the world to find a good formal dress! Boy oh boy! In the end I bought a new pair of shoes (they were on sale) and a black pinstriped jacket to go over a dark purple formal dress I already own. So with the two new 'less expensive' items I've created a new look to my purple dress! The purple dress was really expensive as it was from MYERS so it looks really good even though I bought it ages ago...2008 I think...and although I wanted something new or different to wear I kinda got that...without spending too much ;) I've actually lost weight since I bought the purple dress so I reckon it looks better - lol!

For lunch we zoomed over to the Angel Cafe and it was so nice, it used to be a tradition of ours but I dunno...I think we just got too busy and have been too tired to go out the past few months. I ordered a 'Sweet Chili Chicken Pasta' it was soooo yummy! Actually I didn't eat it all, perhaps only a quarter of it but I brought the rest home :) so I've still got it to enjoy!

Don't you love it when you buy a few items and then bring them home with dozen's of outfits in mind using other items you already own? So you create so many new looks but you may have only bought two new items! I also bought a stripy top today with the colours of, cream, red, blue, gold (a different kinda gold) and then paired the top with a jean jacket and an olive green beanie and it looks great! (If you ask my personal opinion lol!) The new shoes I bought are kinda 'Penelope' style and I love that style - if you haven't watched the movie Penelope you should! She has awesome style, its different and I adore different but elegant and flattering!

Ahh...I could go on and on about style, fashion etc! I don't tend to always follow the trend - I may in my own way but I like different items and taking from what I've seen looks good but also keep 'price cautious' at the same time - although I have observed (lol) if you buy say...an expensive skirt (and when I say expensive I mean over one hundred dollars - yah you can faint now - are you back? Okay...) so I'd make sure you think the skirt is worth it! (You can lay buy it) but with the one expensive skirt go out and buy tops that are less expensive but flattering and they must suit the skirt 100% then the tops look expensive and your outfit looks 'good quality' and although you bought the skirt if you buy different tops and coats you can create several different outfits so it is worth it!

I once bought a cardigan and top that wasn't expensive but I matched them closely together going for a grey/charcoal/blue kinda feel and I was talking to my Speech & Drama teacher and she was complimenting my top and she said 'its so hard to find good expensive tops that look good!' I didn't tell her that my top was like $14.95 (something around that) but she thought they were expensive! Lawl!

Anyway I better go before I fill page after page about fashion, what not to get, what to definitely get! And how its completely cool not to always follow the trend because depending on your age 'the trend' is soooo weird! And every single teenager follows it why not be different and stand out?

Better go...

Love Me

Monday, August 15, 2011

Modern Girls Again




Then once again more photo's of us in modern attire - aren't we funny??

Geeks!




Lawl!
We grabbed some 3d glasses that someone forgot to throw away at the cinema's and put them on as a bit of a laugh - here's the result!

Courtzbee and Bwiza






Hey once again :)

I have time to publish a lot more today as I am at home (alone...) mumsie is at Lisel's and the rest are at work. I got to stay home due to health reasons...but anyway!

The weekend just past my dear friend Courtney came over for a sleep over and we had a really good time. As you might have seen on Jess's blog we got dressed up in huge dresses! Courtney looked fantastic!! The dress really really suited her colouring and figure! Sooooo pretty!

So here are some photo's of us two, it was quite funny I entertained the group while the photo's were being taken by acting out a scene from Pirates of Penzance lawl! We had a 'grand time!' There were some very laughable moments let me tell you! Enjoy!

Go the Extra Mile






Hey one and all!

I finally got my hand on some photos of us when we were volunteering at Go the Extra Mile, it was a really enjoyable time the bike ride afterward was super nice! We had to wait on a stretch near the beach at one time and we just sat on the cement wall dangling our feet over the edge watching the waves beat the rocks below us, the view was amazing as was the air! I loved it! I would love to get a group together and just spend a day bike riding and then end up on the beach for a dip and fish and chips :)

But yes mesa hope you enjoy the photo's! Most of them were taken when we had free time while waiting for another group of walkers to come, so all you could do was sit, eat, and laugh together :) it was nice family time actually!

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Feeling creative

Hello,
Been feeling creative with lyrics and writing seeing as I got into the garden again yesterday and it started raining and don't you love it when you're out among the dirt with the smell of rain everywhere! Ahh...it was nice! Tim Tam didn't quite appreciate the rain he stood under the bush I was clipping with a rather sour face ;)

But here is something I wrote down, I sort of wrote it in the form of a song but I don't know if it is a song...can't make up my mind, but I'll type it out like a song for you :)

Verse 1

Sometimes I wonder at how I see...
The same moon you can see...
Although we're miles apart
It is a small distance, I hope, for our hearts

I know the power behind the world
Love is the greatest I was told
True story we should meet
A flood of knowledge each one of us will keep

Chorus

Can you believe?
Just like that flower I am real
I can't see,
That upon my heart you'll seal
The promise of our lifetime
With such joys no poem can rhyme
Our moment in time...

Verse 2

Like the forgivness of a wrong
For which the time can seem long
Came the knowledge of our love
Because it was whispered from above

A partner for my soul
Every part of me you'll know
Such lessons we will learn
Continuously will this love of ours burn

Chorus

Bridge

This gift from above
It showers us love
Many thoughts unknown
From a heavenly wind blown

Our moment in time...

Well there you go! Mesa hopes you like....a moment in time for God is like a life time for us so really 'our moment in time' is a lifetime. Just a thought...

Gotta go though so toodles!

Love Me

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Once again...

Hello,

Ah...feeling slightly low because don't you hate it when you get disappointed? I've watched something happen a certain way twice this year and I just watched/heard it happen again and its so disappointing when you want to believe someone is better or different and find they are definitely only human and despite their words 'oh look it happened again'

That's when you really wish...

But wishes may as well be the same as saying 'good luck' and in my world 'there's no such thing as luck'

But three times over seals the deal! Say hello to the shell again while remembering things happen for a reason no matter how disappointing they are...sad smile but I expected it in the first place and was waiting for it yet...hoping things would be better and different. Sometimes its the saddest thing in the world to have a dry prediction come true. Oh well! Still praying things aren't as they seem :)

Goodnight!

Love Me

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Happy Stress

Happy stress...is that even possible?

Its sounds like it belongs in the 'random' category but I reckon it can kinda exists...

Explanation:

Lately life in the business has been...ummm...stressful only because of 'plain old business' not because of the people around me.
I've been happy and all and somehow excited but stressed....so weird! The only reason I know I am stressed is because I've been feeling sick the last few days, dizzy and with barely any energy and no appetite I am still trying to eat my lunch and its past 3 o'clock and I haven't finished eating my muesli bar which is a big thing for me as my sweet tooth is huge. I need to force the drinking because I wouldn't want to get dehydrated as well. But mesa happy!! :) yet I could spontaneously start to cry when I have to lie down because of the dizziness and it feels as if tons of things to do with work are drowning me but low and behold the next minute I could laugh! Its like the stress is in a bubble of its own and sometimes it pushes through but most of me doesn't get 'being stressed' lawl!

Weird I know! But all good at the same time :) I think maybe I keep being happy because I am on high with God! Life's good!

Well I gotta go back to work now :) toodles!!

Love Me

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Morning Pray

Hola!

Since Sunday I have prayed every morning a specific pray that God would have my eyes, ears, thoughts, hands, and feet. That he would keep them and help me to be an image of him throughout the day.

Because our pastor mentioned on Sunday about praying that and how it is so important. And although I had been praying God would keep me throughout the day I am being more specific. Praying he would keep my eyes etc focused on him and not stray and get frustrated at small things, upset over anything but always be focusing on God and that he would keep my heart humble and attentive because its so easy to say once you're angry 'Yah well you trying living with them day out and day in, it would make my job easier if they were nicer' but it doesn't matter what they're doing or did its all to do with you. They're a different story that God's writing, just focus on the pages of your own story that he is lovingly putting together. So when I start to get angry and the Holy Spirit put up the 'what's happening' hand I will stop there and smile my little heart off. Or start singing a praise song to get my mind of 'anger'.

And it is soo amazing how God does it all! It works and I know it would because I pray about it but it's still amazing how it does work, I feel lighter and happier :) and when you're in situations when the person who keeps making you angry accuses you of shouting at them when you're only speaking firmly to them (meanwhile praying your head off that God will keep you calm) and they will not see reason just pray that God will press it upon their hearts to see reason! And that works to!

That happened the other day and I left the situation praying God would press upon their heart to see how they were the ones being difficult at that time. And he did and the person apologised to me not ten minutes later! Amazing!

I LOVE GOD SO MUCH!!!!!

Gee soooo much excitement!!! This world is a good world when you do your part of being a better person because life gets easier around you. And I know there will be times when I just slip suddenly but God'll help me back up and 'his mercies are new' all the time!!

Toodles gotta go!

Love Me

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Benjamin Carlos


And last but not least...Benjamin!

My little brother who is almost 20 centimetres taller than me! He's actually only 14 months younger than me.
Benjamin and I were like little twins when we were little. We ran around everywhere together, seeing as we were the two littlest ones down in Tasmania out of the group we were in (for awhile) we still tried to do everything like the 'big kids' that included dashing into thick bushland in the black of night to get away from Luke 'the big boy' scampering through bushland, down cliffs, over fallen logs as we played 'Capture the Flag' or army games, lawl!
...I remember witnessing Benjamin trying to teach a chicken how to fly, which consisted of him putting it onto the highest branch (that he could reach) of a tree and pushing it off. Scary!

But yah personality, he is a melancholy no doubt in my mind! And a phlegmatic. Put a choleric and a melancholy in a the same working room and boy oh boy if we didn't laugh together so much we'd be a mess, those are the times I am sooo thankful I am the older one, hee hee!

Gifts:

Sooo good with his hands
Awesome at maths
Good at soccer
Becoming a good singer (he only began last year and has already made awesome progress!)
Good cook! (Believe it or not)

Benjamin and I look at things so differently, he is kinder to the world then I am (sad for me to say) but he is. I used to hide behind him when I was little. Yet I was the speaker if someone spoke to us...weird? Yah....
If I am feeling sadder or insecure in public I usually go and glue myself to Benjamin. He's used to it! :) thank you Benjamin!

Love Me

Mikayla Hilda


'She is number 4' heee sorry it sounded like the movie 'I am Number 4' I couldn't help it :)

Yes Mikayla comes in before me, she'll be 21 next year in March. And for her the count down is already on. She is always counting down the days to her birthday and she always has her birthday meal decided months before! Unlike me who doesn't even think about it until the week before for shopping purposes - lawl!

Personality...
Mikayla is definitely phlegmatic and...yeah melancholy as well...I think every human being has melancholy in them! ;)

Gifts;

A serving heart
Wonderful cook! (yumsie!)
Sweet smile
Kind
Talkative

Mikayla and I share a room so I know her pretty much through and through, she is my bed time lullaby she literally talks me to sleep. She remembers every birthday that anyone has ever told her! Seriously she gives Benjamin and me quiz's on 'who's birthday is it in August etc?' after about two years I am finally remembering them!

She's one of those girls who eats like a horse and is as skinny as a pole! I don't know how she does it! Lawl!

With Mikayla I can be relaxed, laugh, sing, dance, let go and be slightly crazy because she doesn't think its weird. Thanks Mikayla :)

Love Me

p.s I think all my sisters are absolutely beeeaaauuuuttttiiiifffffuuulllll!!!!

Jessica Amy


Coming along in third place (lol) is Jessica - some of my readers will know Jess from her own blog, Jess will be 22 in September (I can't believe how we've all grown up so fast!)

Personality?
Phlegmatic and melchancholy.

Gifts:

Amazing photographer
Talented cross stitcher
Wonderful writer (as well)
Plays the piano beautifully! (I am her biggest fan I am sure - lawl!)
Writes beautiful piano songs as well!
The best lasagne cooker ever

On a lot of levels and opinions Jess and I are very different, but we do get along as well :) with Jess I can, film, act, laugh, read stories to, share a few thoughts with...Jess and I have this thing of forever saying the same word or sentence at the same time, we don't know how we do it! But we do :)
God's taught me alot from living with Jess and I am very thankful :) and everyone give it up for her photo! Jess is soooo pretty but she don't seem to see it most of the time! Love you Jess :)

Love Me

Lisel Jane




Lisel came second :) she turned 23 in April

Lisel and I are quite alike, I am a bit quieter and more reserved but otherwise we have very similar personalities.
She is a choleric cross melancholy with a bit of sanguine in her as well (From my point of view only of course)
Lisel was the sibling I looked up to the most when I was little, you know how it goes the youngest sister who dreams of being like her older sister. I was quite dreaming but there were aspects of Lisel and how she did things that I wanted to do and be like.

Gifts:

She puts people at ease
Talkative
Lovely laugh
Beautiful smile
Very good at working things out 'for the greater good' - lawl!
Good cook as well

Lisel got married in March 2009, so in a way she missed my 'growning up years' when you get new thoughts and feelings. So we often have to have 'good chats' just so she can catch up on it all.
At the end of 2010 she had a beautiful baby boy which she and her husband Mark named Jonathan (I've mentioned my darling nephew before)

They have their own house and huge property and it's all so beautiful, God has definitely blessed her early on in life!

With Lisel I can, dance, pour out a problem to, cook with, garden with, let go and laugh with. Thank you Lisel!

Love Me

Christina Anne


Christina is the oldest of us all, she will be turning 25 in November this year.
Its funny how many people think she is one of the youngest of the family as she is small and has a young face.
She has been at QUT for the last three years doing a Bachelor in Creative Writing (I dunno the title for it exactly so don't quote me)

Gifts:

Awesome writer (very colourful)
Quite humble
Deep thinker
Good with a picture camera/film camera
Very neat
Good cook!

Her personality would be a mixture of melancholy and phlegmatic, so she is an opposite to me and it is interesting to observe the different way we'd both react to the same thing.

With Christina I can dance, excerise, act, be a fashion freak, and be a dreamer. Because she always listens to a dream and encourages me to pray for all my hopes and dreams. Thanks Christina!

Love Me

Siblings

Hello one and all!

I had decided to put up a posting on each of my siblings explaing them from my point of view :)
I hope you enjoy, I am very blessed with all my dear siblings they are beautiful on the inside and out!

All of them are sooo different from each other and God has taught me so many different things through their different ways :)

So here goes!

Thursday, August 4, 2011

My little baby

Hello again!

I was looking at photo's of my little kitten (well he's not a kitten any more!) but he is still my little baby. He was born September the 12th last year and I was able to take him home October the 17th. He's completely black with only a few strand of white, sooooooo cute! And a good boy too! He has never bitten me because he was angry, ever! He only plays, sleeps, hunts and goes on walks with me hence the nick name 'super duper slow cat' ha, ha, ha, he's real name is Timothy but I always call him Timmie or Tim Tam.

Here's a photo of when he was little and was with Jess, Mumsie and I as we took photos.

Mumsie and I were in the paddock and he's staring at us through the gate, he used to love to sit on my shoulder as I walked around. He'd even stand on my shoulder and hiss and spit at the cow with his tiny fur all on edge. Here's another one,

Now he is tall and has a really long tail it's quite funny! But he's a very good cat with a wonderful personality. I was praying for a beautiful cat that got along with Jessica's cat Caleb (the two love each other!) and God gave me one! :)

Gotta go end of lunch break!

Love Me

Umm....

Hello....

Confession I was going to write something else but I chickened out...sorry! This is all that came of it in the end...

Believe it's really me?
Believe a feeling like this can set you free?
Start with a smile then leave it awhile
Keep walking fast and who knows maybe it'll pass
Seen it before, just awaiting the end
Ahead of me is a road in which there is no bend
Been left here awhile
In which my surprise has long been out of style
Predicted this future
Which one of us is the higher achiever?

Yah...I did put those words together on a page out of a thought in my head, mesa do not copy! Dunno what it means exactly...I just grab a pen and write!

But I gotta finish my lunch, toodles!

Love Me

Monday, August 1, 2011

Wearing the Word

Hello!

Quick note while I am on my lunch break at work, I have been putting together some designs that have been swimming around in my head for my business Wearing the Word. Which consists of putting verses onto apparel and caps or even just positive quotes.

I had a stall at Easterfest 2010 - but since then its been hard to set aside time to build it. We're focusing on just keeping it a web based business, the website is currently under 'construction' - but below is a design I came up with. Its simple but looks effective once embroidered. I embroidered it onto a L/S shirt from a supplier by the name of Hanes. What do you think?


I designed another one which has more colour in it - but when I went to save the image I discovered our program had been shut down on Friday without the changes having been saved. So it's missing one flower - I'll do it back up and save it another time. But the wording of the shirt is 'Grace is greater than our sin...' and I embroidered it onto a L/S grey shirt. Quite effective!

I do have an idea in my head for another shirt, I've got the colours swimming in my head but I am not sure exactly what look to give it quite yet, I know what I want to say but I don't know how I will draw the design to go with it...but the verse that backs it up is 1 John 4: 7-8 - you should read that verse it is beautiful! I have mentioned it previously in a blog named 'the subject of love'

But I have to go now - I hope you like my ideas and design :)

Love Me

I got a bunch!

Hello!

I got a bunch of wattle flowers today! I was walking and once again had to wait for my super duper slow cat so Gabbie and I detoured into a paddock and I found a tree that had a branch heavy with flowers hanging over a fallen tree! :) I just climbed onto the fallen tree and picked away! So now I have a bunch in a vase on my bedside table...

Thought I'd mention, this weekend my family and I are volunteers at this charity walked called Go the Extra Mile held by Gospel for Asia.
It's a 5okm walk (one's hosted in Melbourne somewhere and this one is hosted in Brisbane) basically it's people walking the 50km to raise money for the Dalit children of India. We're at one of the pitstops and we ensure that every walker that has left pitstop 1 reaches pitstop 2 and then we have food and drink waiting for them. And then when everyone has left for pitstop 3 we clean up and then we're on 'sweeping duty' we have to walk from pitstop 2 to 3 as well and take down all the little tags that point out the way :)
I think it is such a wonderful and worthwhile thing to be apart of! I want to walk it one year. It would be awesome to get a group together and walk it. You don't have to do the whole 50kms (you'd need a lot of training to do that and good shoes!) so you can just go to pitstop 2 or 3 (as there are 4) but yah...it would be a good thing to do! Mesa thwinking abwout it....

Well I gotta go!

Love Me